I decided I better buck up and write a thing or two tonight. Not because I feel guilty about my lack of posting…Ok maybe a little bit because of that, but mostly because I have missed writing.
It’s funny how you can rely on something so much one day to get you through and then in the next week your whole life changes, taking your focus with it.
Not that I am complaining. I am so not. I had seriously given up on feeling like I am right now. I am grateful. Thankful. Still smiling.
And for the first time in a very, very long time I feel like maybe I have found someone that is going to be my partner. My equal. Someone that loves me back as much as I will love him. And…I totally wasn’t going to say that out loud…damn outside voice :)
It is what it is. Fucking awesome basically :)
I am back at work pretty much full time this week. We have lots to do and we are all hopeful that spring won’t be evasive this year.
On Thursday when I was at work, Bruce got more than half of my fallen down hedge sawed up and stacked in a big ass pile. I think we are feeling a big fire coming on as soon as there is a decent clear day. I am looking forward to the change it will make in the yard to have a bit more sunlight coming in.
I may as well go with it. I am not feeling like selling the castle is an option right yet. Though it will happen eventually.
I may as well love it while I am there…and the more time goes by I realize that it has all been for a reason. A reason I would have totally missed out on, if my plans in the recent past had worked out the way I thought they were going to.
I am so glad they didn’t. You have no idea. Or maybe you do… I just know that I have more faith in fate than I ever had before.
I know it will turn out the way it’s destined to be.
I also know I am running on. A good sign that I should stop typing and get back to my reality :)
Happy Sunday loves… hope you all have a fabulous week.