Never looking back…

Never looking back…

I wonder…
how you think I could still love you
how you think that I should still care about how you feel

most of my life was spent…
helping you,
loving you,
needing you,
never judging you,
and just wanting your approval…

all I got back….
was judgment,
disapproval,
pretentiousness
and never being good enough of a person to make you happy…

Moving on has been hard….
the hardest thing I have ever done,
there are still days,
when I wonder why,
but never days when I regret my decision to walk away…

I can be happy without you…
and now I have uncomplicated and total love
with friends that don’t judge
and absolute forgiveness of myself for turning around and not ever looking back…

January 23 2009

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