Have you ever gone through a stage when you just don’t care?
I am going through one right now.
I don’t know what is going on with me, but I just feel like and uncaring bitch, and I really don’t care.
I find myself cutting off from the world as much as I can. It was a good time for me to rebuild the blog. I didn’t have to communicate, and you all know I love communicating.
I just didn’t feel like I had anything worthy, and building the blog was a good excuse.
I am doing it in my real life too.
I have always been a loner. I like it that way. People don’t always get it.
I have also always been the caretaker. I really feel like I am past that part of my life right now. I just want everyone to take care of thembloodyselves…
I want to be selfish, self serving and all about me. That hopefully sounds worse than the reality. Cause it sounds pretty bad when I reread it.
But you know what? I don’t care.
Don’t get me wrong, the sympathy is there, it really is…somewhere, buried deep. I am just not sure where I put it for now.
I am ok with that. I am going through a phase in my life that is moving me forward to the next place, wherever the hell that is. I just have to go with it when I feel like this. Nothing I do changes it. God knows in the past I have tried to figure it out. I always come out of it ok.
There may be a little wreckage around me, but that is usually beyond my control. I can only control what I do, not everything that goes on around me. I am finally good knowing that I can’t control the Universe.
So please excuse me if I don’t give a shit…
It’s nothing you have done or said.
It’s all me…