Don’t come to me for sympathy…

Don’t come to me for sympathy…

Have you ever gone through a stage when you just don’t care?

I am going through one right now.

I don’t know what is going on with me, but I just feel like and uncaring bitch, and I really don’t care.

Nice huh?

I find myself cutting off from the world as much as I can. It was a good time for me to rebuild the blog. I didn’t have to communicate, and you all know I love communicating.

I just didn’t feel like I had anything worthy, and building the blog was a good excuse.

I am doing it in my real life too.

I have always been a loner. I like it that way. People don’t always get it.

I have also always been the caretaker. I really feel like I am past that part of my life right now. I just want everyone to take care of thembloodyselves…

I want to be selfish, self serving and all about me. That hopefully sounds worse than the reality. Cause it sounds pretty bad when I reread it.

But you know what? I don’t care.

Don’t get me wrong, the sympathy is there, it really is…somewhere, buried deep. I am just not sure where I put it for now.

I am ok with that. I am going through a phase in my life that is moving me forward to the next place, wherever the hell that is. I just have to go with it when I feel like this. Nothing I do changes it. God knows in the past I have tried to figure it out. I always come out of it ok.

There may be a little wreckage around me, but that is usually beyond my control. I can only control what I do, not everything that goes on around me. I am finally good knowing that I can’t control the Universe.

So please excuse me if I don’t give a shit…

It’s nothing you have done or said.

It’s all me…

really…it is.

 

22 thoughts on “Don’t come to me for sympathy…

  1. Pen-gwen

    Welcome to mentalpause my friend. Now if people would just leave us all the fuck alone it would all be grand.

    Aloha, Gwen.

  2. ElizOF

    When we are feeling a tad overwhelmed, a  little venting can help us regroup and get back to the work we need to do. The blog move has taken it's toll on you, but you will be fine Donna. We all have our off days… This too shall pass. :-)
    Sending virtual hugs and light.
    Eliz

  3. K_did

    this my friend is what another friend of mine (ours!) calls the 'I don't give a fuck years'! We are over 40. We have done for everyone else..taken care of everyone else..sacrificed our wants/needs/thoughts for everyone and everything else..and now, we just don't give a f…well, you get it! :)
    So I say, enjoy this stage…you've earned it! And I am right there with you! Everyone can take care of their own damned selves..I am off duty! :)

  4. Megan Faith

    My love, while you don't give a shit, know that I do give a shit so if you need to vent about all the shit and your not giving a shit… let me know. ;)  xoxo  

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