Really it doesn’t.
So just in case you are worried about me…
Here is my life right this minute.
In a nice warm house…yes.
Following my own path…yes.
Surrounded by amazing friends…yes.
In a good place in my heart and soul…yes.
Am I on the path that I am supposed to be on? Who the hell knows. I do know that I don’t always make good choices. Many times in the past I have done things that I later wish I had done differently, absolutely, but I don’t regret anything that I have ever done. Nor do I regret any of the choices I have ever made. They have all made me who I am, and I think I am pretty ok.
I have spent my whole life trying to live up to what other people think I should be, doing all the things that other people think I should do. I am done with it, exhausted by it. I am a pretty smart girl, and most of the time I can figure stuff out, if I can’t I am not one to try and fake it, I will ask for help or advice if I think I need it.
I am way past the point in my life where I will make uninformed decisions about things that will majorly affect me and my children. I am on my own and proud of what I have accomplished so far, and I know that I can accomplish greater things in this life if I am given…no…when I TAKE the chance.
We all make mistakes, sometimes we take the hard road, when the easy road is there and totally obvious to everyone else. I probably do that more than most people. It is who I am, what makes me …well me. I can’t and won’t apologize to anyone for that, even though I sympathize and totally understand how hard it must be to keep up.
One of the main reasons I started writing was to express myself when sometimes spoken words fail me. I am a little bit more eloquent when I can think about what I am writing instead of trying to say it out loud.
So during this wee period of transformation that I am going through, you will have to bear with me…I know it’s hard, but you can do it…
Like you have a choice…well other than totally ditching me, but that wouldn’t be any fun now would it?
So onto other things…
Here are the latest updates on the house…
The showing went off without a hitch :) though there is so far, no offer pending. I didn’t really expect there to be, with a thousand other houses on the market, most without a leaking roof and big blue tarp, and a cheaper price, they will have to really love this house :)
The good news on my end is that the roof will be started tomorrow, my contractor is a keeper I am thinking…now we just need some cooperation from the weather.
The other good news, I am good with it all, whatever happens, I have decided that life will take me whichever way it wants to, but I am still the one steering the Mustang baby…so it is all up to me in the end…
For right now, I am good to be just sailing along and going with the flow and I once again say…
It’s all good…
Happy Thursday folks…xoxox